Ok lets try this again!
I will try to re-capture the same essence of literary perfection that found me yesterday before I decided to mistakely press the delete button.

Firstly, Its been awhile since I've updated my blog and I apologize. I know you all have been anxiously checking every day to see if I have added anything(dont lie). Anyways... The poker has been both good and bad. Good in the sense that I a have been able to increase my 10-tabling session stamina after returning from work an still have enough energy to go out at night(sadly its a must in Madison.. at least for me). Bad in the sense that I still am not really making any progress in regards to my bankroll.



As you can see I have been Six Flaggin it up as it has been a virtual up and down BR rollercoaster. I do however consider this breaking even. Thinking about my last post where I was about to cry about the foot Stars was putting in my ass... I feel much better now as the 'doom' switch has been switched back to 'normal'. That being said..I have not been playing exceptional poker. I attribute this lack of results and performance to a few factors:

1) I am pumped up to play poker after work but am mentally tired already. This I believe leads me to make looser calls and go on auto pilot more often.

2)10 Tabling.. I am still learning to play Sng's and Mtt's at a high volume and I KNOW I am missing alot of info that I would usually pick up on. I am losing a sense of table image (A big part of the game for me) and am not being able to pick up on betting patterns. I also forget what my image is on a particular table. Some poeple (spacegravy and venetian come to mind) say they dont really bother assessing table image when volume playing and i guess it makes sense to them. However, I do believe they use PAHUD which I am too stupid to figure out how to set up(and lazy). ughh maybe i should just sit and figure it out one night. Anyways.... me not being able to assess table image leads me to make more mistakes on the bubble, which I am almost as fond of abusing as narcotics(jk folks).

3)Friends and girls... As much as I love being social and somewhat normal, I have really found that this area of my life directly and heavily influences my being able to put in sessions. I almost feel ashamed to be spending so much time with poker. I feel like a bad friend and a bad bf because when I get home cause I gotta "get that cheese and put in the hours". Ill get the same Im's every day:

RandomBorG: What are u doin? Wanna hang out?
Me: Poker..perhaps later?
RandomBorG: That’s a surprise, I swear you are addicted
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times this by 3 during my initial session and half of my mid is thinking about social relationships now... Not good for poker profitability. I dont know what to do about this phenomena. Most of my friends know I play poker but I dont know if they understand hte level of commitment and hard work required to succeed in this ever toughening arena. Subsequently they dont understand why it should occupy so much of my 'free' time. Unless im pullin in the G's, its kinda hard to justify your lifestyle to anyone. Poker is the main reason why I dont have a steady GF. I am simply too selfish with my time and girls like to have your undivided. I am not a fan of random sex (which i have learned to accept) so I dunno where that puts me.

Well thats prob it or now... just wanted to check in! Peace

-St. Lucifer