Well this is a thing I have had happen to me early in my poker multitabling career but for over a year it has stayed away. Until 2 nights ago session it popped it's ugly head. I am quite sure I know why it happened new laptop getting used to diff touchpad speed sites don't have my preferences saved I don't have my allsnap and pt and pahud if I want to turn them on. Usually don't but I think knowing they weren't there effected my mindset. Once i got over 16 tables I started getting annoyed I start late sessions here down in florida. Usually start with 200 turbo at 6 and not many things till the 7pms and on. I happened to only bust out of 1 tourney from 7pm to the 50/50s at 930 I had something like 21 tables going on taking to a possible agent chatting on 2+2 and aim while smoking a black and mild. I then realized I was doing wayyyy too much shit at once and that was partially why I didn't bust. I was expecting to examine my stack sizes and be like 7-20bbs on all tables but I had stacks a bunch of places it was sad I couldn't even recall how I won chips knew I shoved had no idea if I was called or not. And that shit really bothered me I always pride myslef on my memory while playing I can tell you hands vs so many diff players from 2 years ago. I just always was good with that.

But I couldnt for the life of me recall anything about anytable it was like a drunk blackout of poker playing. I tried so hard to recount things that happened reread handhistories and keep drawing complete blanks it was as if I was truely autoplioting not looking at names stacksizes anything. that worried me a bunch so I tried to stop it and actually made an effort to bust in a few of the smaller things that I had no chips in. But, I keep winning those flips and then had stacks in them as well. So I actually got frustrated that I couldn't bust in a tourney. I know it makes no sense but it bothered me the whole session how come I couldn't go out. Then I start taking the tourney serious because they are getting itm I fted some decent sized 24 on FTP and had 15 other tables going busted the ft was even more tilted and then started dropping tourneys like flies. Then I try to nit it up because I know I was tilted/spewy but that didn't work got strong hands into stronger or got big hands cracked sounds like broken record but it was baddd.

So bad that in my next session last night I played under 20 tourneys I haven't done that for a long long time maybe 6months+ of playing a session of reg for over a 4+ hour period and being under 20 tourneys. I did decent got some stacks got deep in another wsop sat but tilt took over and I spewed. I hate when I spew I feel like I went back a few levels in poker devolpment and losing my edge bothers me. It's so weird just 2 weeks ago I was bragging about having no tilt in my game I took 2 sick equity beats in freerolled pots where I shouldn't ever be getting freerolled and that didn't bother me. but not being able to bust the 10$ fo on stars tilted the fuck out of me.

This is an anger post so i'm leaving all the intial mistakes in this thread to show myself that mistakes just get worse if you don't fix em.

Well after getting done with the LAPC I got home it was cold and snowy def not the environment I felt like being in. So I decided to book a flight to florida for a nice little vacation. Anyways I'm here with my dad and gram and lots of relatives who are down here for the winter. I happened to fly down the day before my 22nd bday so I went out with my dad to his fav bar down here cheers had some drinks was a bit tired from traveling so we headed home a bit early before the crowd came. Woke up went to this awesome italien restaurant trato fragolio or something if any of you are in the lauderdale area and want a place to eat I'll find the actual name out for you I cant think of it and its something similar to that but my fam just calls it tutty fruity because its easier to say and remember. I then played sundays at lilholdems house was a lot of fun to grind with a few new people and watch him from behind the screen. Was lucky to watch him ft 100r that exitonly was also at chad finished 5th ray ended up winning it for close to 50k.

During this time another wafflecrusher had a deep run fellow tworags blogger cking had his sickening end in the mil for 7th place. I was def more angry of the beat them him which is funny because I never get mad when I lose really but was honestly pissed when he lost even though he wasn't. I guess its because I know he deserved that 6fig score and didn't get it. On monday I woke up and was asked if I wanted to go to the harness track. They have a newly built casino and poker room. I knew they had slightly higher games then the last time I was here which was up to 2/2 lhe and some mid to higher stakes sngs. Now they have decent sizes cashgames but goofy buyins. I go to the desk and ask them what the biggest game being spread cuz Im so baller like that. They say theres seats open at a 5/10 100max game opening up. Yup you heard that correctly the max buyin for the game is 10bbs. If there every was a cash game made for someone like me it would be this. Which is way better then a cap game because people are even worse with 10bbs,

Anyway I run up my first buyin fat to like 350 had a few pots 4-5 people would limp all with like 100-150 I would shove in blinds for like 200 without looking they all fold. Then they started calling and once 1 called they all called. So we had like 5 4-7 person allins preflop. And they had such bad hands for mutliway allins. So I lost my 350 back bought in a few times more was in for like 400 then get a stack to 900 running hot in lots of uninteresting pots. I move seats to get pos on the other two deep stacks and by deep I mean 400-700 they both sucked a lot and no one else at the table had any clue how to beat .25/.50fr nl online. I lost a bunch tilted because the play was so bad and I couldnt win a pot or make a pair. Had to rebuy a few times. Got bored and started shoving pf had like 2 times get it in with 6 high hu and lose. After the 3rd time I had J10o I shove I some how get 6 callers they all check it down on a JJ583 board I hold and only had to fade 2 outs because I was against 4 Ax hands and K10 and 77. Anyways I cruise for a bit after that have a really fun and interesting hand.
Not the stack sizes are in (xx) and are in relation to the first person talked about
The villians in this hand are hard to desrcibe because they were so bad anyways 2 guys limp in EP (70) and (100) I have Q8hh and overlimp (800)because raises pf were usually by me 2 young kids on my left most important people in this hand are both awful 2 buddies with 400$ glasses on that prob are knockoffs that they paid 20$ for and they both told me they been into poker for a few months and been crushing. I laugh cuz they are so bad but may even be profitable in the lineup I was against. Anyways one limps to my left with (600) other one(750) raises to 50 sb (60) goes allin bb calls (62) both limpers call I ask dealer if the pfr can reopen betting dealer says no so I call. Often I wouldnt give away this info but these guys dont know how to interpret that. Also knowing both of them would call and see a flop they often soft played when in a pot regardless of who else was in the pot. So I basically get to run it out multiway if I want and get free turns and rivers or value bet them when I hit. PFR says something about how he wants a good flop and hes been semi honest about what he needs pf but lies a lot at showdown. So anyway flop comes down 8c 4h 3c bb goes allin for 2$ first limper folds????? 2nd limper calls I make it 102. Guy to my left keeps going I like my pair its prob ahead you got nothing etc. While hes talking to himself and deciding his buddy to his left announces raise and says 202. He gets all confused when dealer says its not on him. Eventually his buddy decides to call the bet. The kid now tries to fold????? I get really confused and now am sure I have him beat I dunno why he would try to bluff a small sidepot in protect pot but hes just retarded. Anyways floor is ruled as he tries to muck his hand and not raise floor says he has to raise. So its folded to me and I shove hoping to make them both fold at the time I thought kid to my left had A8 and the plan was to make him fold and me to pick up the 300$ sidepot while still having a 3 way allin for the almost $450 main pot. While the middle kid is tanking he ends up showing his cards to his buddy still left to act and folding. I go wtf how can he do that when theres still action to be made. I try to get them both penalized or something but the dealer is a friend of theirs and lets it slide Im pissed now. This is all taking nearly 10 minutes to complete the hand as we had to wait for floor and other live slowdowns of the game. The guy to my right gets all angry stars saying he wants to see all hands Im like wtf its clear he thinks cheating is going on and then says how he thinks all 3 of us are cheating Im thinking how can he think we are cheating when we are all pushing each other out of sidepots not effecting anyone else. Anyways guy tanks and guy to my right then calls clock on him this is the guy who wanted to fold but was forced to make it 202 I'm thinking he has a small overpair now and just begging for him to fold. He finally obliges what he tells me later was kqo I go wtf took you so long he said I think I had you I laugh as I show my tp. The turn card is finally show and its Kx and he goes nuts that he was right about his read Im so confused now. SB ends up having 88 for top set and bb had AKo. I then ask kid to my left what he folded and he says A8. I just laugh since all 4 8s were accounted for and he just likes to ave face. So Im now at about 1100 until this next memorable hand.

The kid from the 202 betsize is in for about 1300 and had to hit up the atm already today so hes on case money. Hes built it upto about 900 playing bad and getting there. I raise over a guy who limps every hand (250) with 76s to 55 hopeing to get it hu and watch this guy c/fold to my flop cbet like 80% of the time. kid to my left calls everyone else folds including limper. Flop is a nice 954r with 1 of my suit. I bet 80 he says 280 pretty quickly. I thought this was the same as his bluff I knew if I called which Id do vs a smarter player who would fear my flat and check most/all 1 pair hands behind on turn so I get 2 free cards but this guy would shove turn with his 2nd pair not even realizing hes turning it into a bluff. No one else had over 300 at the table at this time so me getting into a big pot vs him wouldnt hurt me in stacking other guys for what they had in front of them. So I decide to make it 780 with like 350 behind he tanks and calls Im like ugh then turns 3x and rivers a 10x so I proudly say nuts and table my hand whole table is in shock the only half way decent player one who spoke up about collusion to my right says nh to me knowing what I was doing and why and saying how kid should have only called with a set and didnt. Kid then tries to claim he had 44 as he fires his hand into the muck. He had shown everytime he took a sick beat or had a big hand so Im quite sure he had tp or less and made a hero call. Anyways I stack up the pot have like 2100 in for about 800. Win a few more pots until this fun hand comes up.

Utg limper is same buddy of guy the one who folded and showed his cards to buddy hand prior he limps(350) button is a guy who got in for like 1k within his first 25 hands raising everything shoving a lot and raising to 25 then shoving the flop a lot well actually not taking a bad strag to get deeper at these tables since so many call PFR and then fold flop so raising 25$ and shoving flop can be profitable but hes not even that clever to realize why what hes doing is working sometimes. He then raises to 100 (200) I find aces in the BB and make it 400 in green chips utg then says I think I have you and calls and old guy calls quickly. Board is Q9789 when the turn came Im like damn I am going to lose river I was a bit happy about. I show my aces utg shows KJs and button has AKo This puts me to a bit over 2500 for my stack and I rack up 30min later to get some food.

Was a lot of fun if I could ever play 4 tables of this game at once I'd become a live pro and make about 250k a month. I knew it was a great table a few hours in when I knew there was no one to worry about at table talked a bit about online poker and my names there. Not 1 person had any clue who I was and then I sat back smiled and knew what a good game I was in.

Ended up doing an online session tonite did well got 5th in 100r keep running into hands by ray who had pos on me and was obv also at the ft he finished 3rd after getting back to his runbad having KK lose to A9o allin pre vs same size stack 3 handed. I also got 2nd in the big double so about 10k profit on the night


Also sorry for this being longer then I planned its like 6am and I prob made a shitload of errors